The background.
I'm in my mid fifties and came to mongering late in life. In the recent years prior to that I had little or no sex life. But to be honest I dont have a big sex drive anyway, so it wasn't a problem.
The path to mongering started when I visited brothels in the UK, then I moved onto Europe visiting Poland Germany and the Czech Rep. These were haphazard visits and often revolved around the odd business trip, and not much planning went into them. It was then that I decided to take the plunge and make my 'one and only' trip to S.E.A. So that's how I got to make my first trip to Phil.
That first trip was a 'life changer'.
Upon my return home I suffered the most horrendous PPD and basically ceased to function in work or in family life. All focus was on how I could change my life to allow regular visits to S.E.A. and 4 months later I was back in AC for my second trip. I have now made 4 trip to Phil but I have to say that the urge to visit again is waining and the PPD is no longer much of a problem for me.
The issue.
So I'm starting to wonder was mongering a hobby for me rather than the life changer I thought it was?? I've always been the kind of guy that finds something that interests me, gets totally obsessed with it, and then looses interest. This is the same with relationships, hobbies, and other stuff thats been a part of my life. To give you a few examples:
1. When I find a holiday destination I like I will visit it 5 times on the trot then get bored and find somewhere else.
2. I take up the guitar. Buy a Les Paul and a Martin and play until my fingers are numb. Then totally loose interest and haven't strummed a chord in 2 years.
So after 4 visits to AC in 3 years I'm starting to think was mongering just a hobby for me??? It takes quite an effort for me to make these Phil trips ... socially, financially, and from a work perspective. The first two trips were fantastic, the third was good, but the 4th was less rewarding.
Maybe I need a new destination to rekindle the flame ... dont know. Or perhaps its the fact that I dont have a huge sex drive in the first place. Or maybe I'm just in that place where the last trip seems a distant memory and the next trip is over the horizon and out of sight..... just don't know.
I could make another trip in September and have thought of visiting LOS, but right now I dont have much enthuasism for it 
Time will tell. In a couple of months it might be all I'm thinking of lol.
Do any of you guys find yourself in the same boat??
Cheers.